birth and deaths

How many more cycles of birth and death do we have to go through before we reach our middle ground? before we settle into it properly?

we all have inner monsters waiting to be unleashed onto each other and we're all scared of it. we are very scared of it. we know we shouldnt but we do anyway. continue this way we will kill each other and even the relationship perhaps? or is it just a phase both of us have to go through. i dont want it to be hard. i dont.

amidst all these turmoil and pain, i still want him, im still happy with him. this didnt feel like the last time. we dun fight. we upset each other cos we want each other to be happy so much. its such a fucking irony.

please let me pass this phase well. i wont give up.